I feel like he hates me again. I thought he’s been on my level the last few days, and maybe he still is, but I feel like he hates me again and he finds my problems annoying. If he does then that’s fine – that’s completely understandable and I can make my own way. I never intended for anyone to be able to handle this and have always thought in the end then I’d end up on my own with three dogs and a van.
I just hate it when I think he hates me.
Even if he doesn’t.
I’m sorry for feeling this.